My pleasant walk down the memory lane
Brought some painful memories that never healed
Oh no it’s been more than thirty years
Still makes me cry if I revisit this part

Was a beautiful monday morning
Morning chores little home was so lively
Mom making our favourite breakfast
Dad getting ready for work
Brother rushed to work after coffee
Breakfast he has at the hotel
Sisters studying for afternoon exams
Little me so cool no rush school vacation

Yummy the breakfast mom made
String hoppers with potato roast
Sent dad off to work saying bye
Said we will come there in the evening
Shopping was the plan we all had

Mom sat for a while got up went to bed
Said need to cook lunch for all
A little rest that she needs she said
Saw her walking to the loo
On her way back oh she lost her balance
We kids ran asking what happened
Could have called us for help we said
No I am ok little dizzy that’s all I feel
Those were her last words we heard

Helped her back to bed
Mom closed her eyes went to sleep
The final sleep the eternal sleep
On the bed in the shrine room
Little teenagers we knew less
Called the neighbours called the taxi
All the neighbours assisted all the way

A lady said for me to do CPR
Didn’t know CPR still did what she said
Mom no more little me didn’t know
Breathing into her mouth fervently
Holding her nose, hoping that she wakes up
Asking many question answers none we got
Still hoping she would wakes up soon
Saying I am ok not to worry

Panic and tension at the peek
Finally taxi arrived took her to hospital
Elder sister went with the hope
Mom still alive need medical assistance
Little sister and me at home crying
Praying to God to help mom get better

After an hour they confirmed
Mom no more left us gone far away
Not gonna come back never will come back
No this cant happen never can happen
Screaming crying shock was too much to bare

Waited for dad who came immediately
Rushed to the hospital and everywhere
Came after hours hugged us all
Said mom no more with us gone forever
Left me permanently with you all I have now
Never seen him crying strong man he was
Dad cried like a little child first time I saw

Shaken our beautiful world beyond words
Brother came home running
Couldn’t believe what he heard
Hugged dad and cried like a baby
Oh those hard time tears are rolling right now

Rest was like blur gaze
People came all came from everywhere
To say final bye to my mother no more
Country situation so bad travelling was no easy
Dad so adamant we are not sending mom off
Until her mother and little ones see her

Four days after my little sister brother arrived
Grandma asking for her one and only child
Her precious godly daughter
My baby sister crying saying wanna talk to mom
No answers we all had mom not gonna come back

Oh it was the hardest time
We all had in our life specially dad
Mom was his world little ones we were
Lived rest of his life for us
With the only hope to reach mom soon

Survived for four years without mom
With the only thought of mom
The duty to his children kept him alive
No more than four years he was able to breathe

Will stop this sad part now
Writing with tears rolling down my cheek
Hard were those days hard to forget
Hope I didn’t make you cry thinking
The hard days you had too