Mixed Emotions

Just a happy feeling
Also sad feeling
My heart was feeling heavy
With this mixed emotions

Heard the same voice again
After a year or so I guess
Chest feeling heavy and painful
Eyes feeling wet and heavy

What is this emotion
Trying to analyse and see
Why this heavy feeling
I really don’t know

Traveling down the memory lane
Revisiting the good old days
The child made me laugh
The child made me happy

The fake anger the fake fights
The silly arguments and all
Like own siblings same blood
Will it ever return back

Not related by birth
No close or distance relative
Still there was this bond
Like your own blood relation

All that was broken suddenly
Over an issue I never thought of
Why did this happen
Was it a fate or all fake

Still miss my baby brother
Even though I am hurt like hell
Will I ever forget any of those
Will my happiness return